Sept 28 Today is Yom Kippur.... When you fast all day and attend services to atone for all your sins.... Since I am perfect and no sins LOL .... I am instead in a reflective mood , looking for peace and calm... I don't understand how the older I get the less I know! I used to be so smart and knew everything.... Now I seem to know nothing... How can that be???

I think since our son came out to us.... My world has been more based in the Twilight zone then the reality that most other people operate in....It has almost been 2 years since his top surgery and I think at last I have found the peace and calm I have been seeking... I now want my voice to be heard and I want everyone to know how proud I am and how brave he was to make all the right choices for himself. I no longer cringe every time someone uses the wrong pronoun when speaking to me about my son, but I make sure to correct them.... because in time they will get it right. I even am getting used to the tats and the artistry behind them.

I still am in therapy and I think getting ready to graduate again ( I think I am fine until life slams into me and I find myself desperate to talk to George again)

Last night I had a delightful conversation with my son and told him about this blog for the first time... He was pleased and supportive and wants to pass this address onto others moms like me.... Yippeeeeee.... We also had one of his best friends come and spend the night with us and it was interesting to see how he gained a greater understanding of what his mom must be going through by reading this :)

I was curious this morning and did a google search on FTM Mom.... Do you want to know what comes up..... "First time mom" or "Full time mom" YIKES!!!! Guess I will just go into the garden, pick some flowers and find joy in the simple pleasures like has to offer....