Oct 20, 2009

Wow I have some exciting news! I just finished a quilt therapy project.... Pictures to be posted when I get Hubbie to do the teckie work. Queen Bling the name of the project was started 6 months after my son started taking the hormones.... What a hard time that was! We were living hundreds of miles apart and only saw each other at 4 month intervals and the changes were amazing....It was hard enough to hear the voice deepening on the phone but to see your daughter almost son with full facial hair is something all together different, Yikes! I would retreat to my bed where I could hide under the covers and know this too shall pass. Little did I know on one Occasion my Sweet son would be a dead ringer for Abraham Lincoln full beard and all... I can laugh now, but at the time I could barley seen Thur all the tears.

Oh yes, I got off the subject which happens a lot once you hit 50+
I am going back about 2 years now.... In one of my therapy sessions (remember St George, yes he is still around) He told me I had constructed a shrine to my kid! And as hard as it was for me to agree he was right(gosh I hate when they are right) I ran around the house like the crazy person we already know I am and removed everything including almost all people of my baby girl. When I placed everything in the box there were two items I could not part with. My daughters pink leather baby shoes and a petticoat worn to her birthday. This would be become the jump off point for the quilt! Yes it is 3-d and the shoes and petticoat are a main part of the design she is almost 6 feet tall and 4 feet wide and simply BEAUTIFUL! It was my way of saying good by to my daughter and hello to my new gorgeous son! I worked on the project day and night for a year and a half and yes I was obsessed! I am hoping to enter her in some quilt shows and a quilting magazine so her story can be told!

I am excited for my son to view my treasure as it is a gift to him! This blog is a gift to us both.... I being the Jewish Mother I am life is not so easy with me. I come equipped with foot in mouth disease along with other nagging ways... It really is the good bad and the ugly!

I am pleased to hear that my sweet baby boy has passed this info on to members of his trans man group and I welcome you all with open arms and a bowl of matzo ball soup! Please read and understand what it must be like for your moms. The best thing I have learned recently is as hard as this journey has been for me I can only imagine how hard it is for all of you.... I am awed by the courage it takes.... I wish I knew then how much courage it took for my baby to tell me in that mountain cabin, and I wish I could of just hugged him and we could of taken the journey together.... I will regret that for the rest of my life! Oy the things I wish I could have a do over on! Oh no the tears are flooding my desk right now, time to go buy stock in Kleenex!
Until we meet again....